Lately....

I have been a little sad lately about my little Peyton. Every little family event, it hits me that she isn’t here. Don’t get me wrong, I am so incredibly thankful for this new little life growing inside of me....BUT, that just doesn’t take away the pain of not having Peyton here with me.  She would have been a 🦄Unicorn🦄 for Halloween. Every time I see a little girl dressed as a unicorn, I think of her....and what she would look like and what her personality would be like. Had she been born on her due date, May 2nd, she would be almost 6 months old. I still get that feeling where it’s hard to catch my breath every now and then. It’s like the pain catches up and it comes crashing down on me. But thankfully, the bad days are less common now. I have more good than bad, but when the bad ones hit, they sure do hit hard.  

Even though they are going to be tough, I am excited for the Holidays coming up. Thanksgiving and Christmas will have their moments of sadness but overall, I am going to try really hard and enjoy them. I refuse to

let the Devil steal my joy. Christmas time is my favorite time of year and I refuse to not be excited about it coming. 

We plan to burn her special candle for Thanksgiving and Christmas to celebrate her and how much she means to us. She will never be forgotten and we will always include her in some way, in everything that we do.